Kuch bhi nahi.....

Kabhi lagta hai k wo yahin hai,
kabhi lagta hai kuch bhi nahi
kabhi lagta hai kuch hai jo kheeche hai teri or,
phir kabhi lage jaise kuch bhi nahi.

kabhi aise hi tera jane kya keh jana...
kabhi teri khamoshi me bhi jane kya kya sun lena...
kabhi bin kahe samajh jana...
kabhi lab hile bhi nahi aur laga k sab keh dala tune,
kabhi sau baato pe bhi lage abhi kaha kuch bhi nahi.
kabhi yun hi baato baato me izhaar kar jana,
phir jo tu puche toh kehna "na kuch bhi nahi"

wo tera khayal aate hi khud me muskurana...
phir khud hi khud ko samjhana...
puchna khud se "aakhir ye kya hai?"
phir khud hi se jhooth kehna k "kuch bhi nahi"
yakin hai haal ye dil ka idhar bhi hai udhar bhi...
hoon janta k jazbaat ye idhar bhi hai udhar bhi...
baat jo dabi hai dil me, labo pe na main la paoonga na wo..
baat jo khamoshiyaan keh gayee hain, na main keh paoonga na wo...
bas intezaar hai kab main kahoonga "is dil me beintehaa mohabbat hai"..
intezaar hai kab tu kahegi "is dil me kuch bhi nahi"

haan... ye tum thi......

Fir ek din yu hi uska khayal ho aaya
fir ek din maine khud ko samjhaya...
Lekin mera hi koi hissa mere us hisse k na hone pe yaki nahi kar raha tha..
Mere hi andar baitha 'main' use mujh se duur nahi jane deta tha..
Jo ho chuka tha uske hone pe sawal karta tha...
Jise kabhi paya nahi tha uske khone pe sawal karta tha..
Isi jadd-o-jehad me ji bhi raha tha toh zindagi se muh mod k
use pane ki chahat bhi karta tha toh use pane ki hasrat chor k

tabhi koi awaaz sunai di

kisi ne mere kaan me dheere se jaise kuch kaha..
Palat kar dekha toh tum khadi muskura rahi thi..
Wohi jadu wohi ehsas wohi mohabbat liye aakhon me..
Usi masoomiyat usi bholepan k sath wohi tum najar aa rahi thi..
Har baar ki tarah boli,
"budhdhu..main toh yahin hoon... fir muhe kahan dhoondte ho??
Main ab bhi tumhare sath hoon.. jaise hamesha thi..aur yun hi sath rahoongi..
Toh mujhe bhulne ki baat bhula do"
main jaise tumhare jadu me khoya sa..
Kisi khwab me jaga..kis hosh me soya sa..
Bin hasi k khilkhilata..sukhe aansu bhar roya sa
jaan nahi pa raha tha k ye haqiqat hai ya bharam hai..
Kya tu sirf ek chaya hai ya sach me wohi qatil sanam hai..
Mere ghamo ka koi javab hai ya fer khud ek naya gham hai..

Par teri nighaho ne sab bayan kar diya..
Tere har gham ko teri sadgi ne fanaa kar diya..
Bol padi wo aankhen aur chubhti si us khamoshi ko khafa kar diya
haule se mera sar god me rakhkar kahajuda nahi tumse..
har dum sath honge hum..
Main mohabbat hoon teri bin tere ji nahi sakti
fir laga k wo tum thi bhi aur tum thi bhi nahi..
Haan ye tum hi toh thi par fir bhi nahi..

Ye tum thi..meri mohabbat..
Ye tum thi meri chahat..
Ye tum hi thi jisne mujhe pyar ka matlab bataya tha..
jisne mujhe pyar karna sikhaya tha..
Jisne mujhe mujhse chura liya tha...
jisne mujhe mujhse milaya tha..
tum hi thi jo har pal muskurane pe majboor karti thi...
tum hi thi jo har gham ko palakon se duur karti thi...
tum jo har hasrat,har khushi, har chahat me shamil thi..
tum jo har aahat,har saans,har muskurahat me daakhil thi..
tum jo nazakat thi,shararat bhi thi..
tum jo faasla thi,mohabbat bhi thi..
tum jo haya thi..
tum jo ada thi..
jo kashish thi..
jo tapish thi..
ek junoo(n) thi..
ajab sa sukoo(n) thi..
haan ye tum hi thi...wohi tum..tum hi thi...

par isme wo tum si banavat na thi....
khoobsurati wohi thi par sajavat na thi..
nayee saadgi thi..ek paakizagi thi...
mohabbat wohi thi par wo sab pa lene ki chahat na thi..
shayad ye tum hi thi..shayad na thi..
is bar khone ka wo khauf na tha..
masoomiyat toh thi par wo zamane ka zauk na tha..
nasha wohi tha, par ab hosh bhi tha..
sab dard bhulane wala tera aagosh bhi tha..
milne ki hasrat thi,khone ka khayal na tha..
sawal sab wohi the,par khoo-e-sawal na tha..
ye tum thi bhi aur thi bhi nahi..
ye tum thi jo meri thi,meri bas ek hasrat...
haan ye tum thi tum hi thi..meri pahli mohabbat..

Mujhe mohabbat hai.... ;)

Phir mere ghar ki adhkhuli khidki se ek sard hawa ka jhonka aaya
koi tapish dil me samete meri tanhai ka ehsaas le aaya
taane kasta, mujh par hasta, kya kya karta raha thitholi..
"ghut k jeena yun hi tadapna..hai ye mohabbat kitni bholi"
kehta tha jahan me dil lagaoge..toh khudko yunhi akela paoge..
par meri bhala sunta kaun hai??
ye hawa isi liye toh maun hai..
ab bhi waqt hai pagal, koshish kar aur sambhal ja..
jag is neend se aakhen khol aur ise sapna samjh k bhool ja...

mera mann mann hi mann has pada...
bola arre pagal tu sach me kitna nadan hai....
is pyar ki taqat se aaj tak anjaan hai...

jab tanhai dil ko rulati hai...
to uski mohabbat mere hothon pe muskan lati hai..
jab jab hijr ki raatein dil ko koi dard deti hain..
tab tab uski chahat mujhe uski yaadon ka sahara deti hain..
jab bhi ye palakein uske intezar me bhig jati hain..
har baar tab uski mohabbat mujhe apni god me sulati hain...
maine jab bhi khud ko duniya me kahin akela paaya...
bahon me liye bepanah mohabbat usko apne sath hi paaya..

ye agar tanhai hai toh mujhe is tanhai se mohabbat hai...
agar ye ishq me rusvai hai toh mujhe is rusvai se mohabbat hai...
wo har pal meri rooh me meri saanso me mere dil me basi hai
agar phir bhi ye judai hai toh mujhe is judai se mohabbat hai...
khuda rok sakta hai hume milne se meri mohabbat kam nahi kar sakta....
phir bhi agar yehi uski khudai hai, toh mujhe uski is khudai se mohabbat hai...
khud dard seh k bhi mere dard ka ehsaas hai use...
agar ye bewafai hai, toh mujhe uski is bewafai se mohabbat hai..

uski har naadani, har berukhi, har masoom adat se mohabbat hai
har khamoshi, har duri har majboori se mohabbat hai
har toote sapne, har zakhm apne se mohabbat hai...
har bhoole waade, har jhoothi kasam har taghaful iraade se mohabbat hai
uski har hasi, uski nigaaho ki maykashi uski har bebasi se mohabbat hai..

mujhe uski mohabbat se mohabbat hai
apni is chaahat se mohabbat hai..
dhadkano ki is aahat se mohabbat hai...
dard ki is "rahat" se mohabbat hai..

uski dil ko aadat si ho gayee hai...
mujhe apne dil ki is aadat se mohabbat hai..

meri zindagi ab usi se shuru, usi pe khatm hai...
aur mujhe apni zindagi ki is kahani se mohabbat hai..

Mohabbat....:)

Bheegi bheegi dhoop si ye mohabbat
thandi thandi ek tapan si hai
meetha meetha sa ek dard hai ye ishq
ajab si ek tees bhi hai
halka sa koi nasha hai ye
pyari si koi saza hai ye

teri aankhon ki shararat sa ye
tere chehre ki masoomiyat sa ye
teri baato ki mithas hai isme
teri chhuan ka ehsaas hai isme
teri badan ki mahak hai isme
teri saanso ki dehak hai isme

duniya bhula dene wala jaadu sa
koi deewanapan bilkul bekaabu sa
bas ek jhalak ki hasrat si
fir firse milne ki chahat si
bina aahat ka shor koi jaise
hazaar aawazon ki khamoshi hai kabhi
bin baat ki muskaan kabhi jaise
khamosh chup tufaan jaisi hai kabhi
teri nigahon me doob jane ki tamanna
tere pyar me kho jane ki hasrat
aas jaise bina umeed ki koi
sapne jaise bina neend k koi
bekhudi ka maza bhi hai
kuch aansoo bewajah bhi hain

ye teri mohabbat hai ya koi nasha hai?
kitna maza isme bewajah hai........

Kyu???

kyu uski udasi mujhe udas kar jati hai?
kyu uski rusvai meri jaan si le jati hai?
kyu uski judai me sara jahan begana sa lagta hai?
kyu uski mohabbat mujhe zindagi si de jati hai??

kyu uski hasi sab dard bhula deti hai?
kyu uski khushi mujhe jannat ka ehsaas deti hai?
kyu uske gham me rone ko dil karta hai?
kyu uski khamoshi meri aawaz le jati hai?

kyu uske bina jine se darr lagta hai?
kyu uske bina aab-e-hayat zehar lagta hai?
kyu uski masoomiyat uske sab sitam bhula deti hai??
kyu use har baar muaf karne ko dil karta hai??

kyu uske seene se meri dhadkano ki aawaz aati hai?
kyu uski saanso ki aawaz dil me koi azaab lati hai??
kyu use palak bhar dekhne ko betaabi si hoti hai??
kyu uski har mulakaat fir milne ki chahat jagati hai??

kyu uski har baat pe yakin aata hai??
kyu uske har bahane pe ye dil aata hai??
kyu uski taghaful mohabbat se mohabbat huyi jati hai??
kyu uski berukhi pe aur pyar karne ko ji chahta hai??

kyu uski yaad me duniya bhulane ka gham nahi?
kyu is bemel mohabbat ko umar bhar nibhane ka gham nahi?
kyu is pagalpan me zindagi dhoond li maine??
kyu ab uska diwana kehlane ka gham nahi??

kyu uski baahon se duniya parayi si lagti hai?
kyu uski aakhon me madhoshi bhari gaharai si lagti hai??
kyu uske aagosh me fanaa ho jane ko dil karta hai??
kyu zindagi se mohabbat ab us-se bewafai si lagti hai?

kyu uski galati pe khud k liye saza mangata hoon?
kyu ab khuda ko uske baad khuda maanta hoon??
kyu uski judaai me bhi nasha sa dikhta hai??
kyu use wafao ka dard de kar apne liye zafaon ka maza maangta hoon??

kyu uski baate har lamha karne se ji nahi bharta??
kyu barha "mohabbat hai" ye kehne se ji nahi bharta??
kyu har lamha uske diid ki chahat hai??
kyu use ji bhar dekhne se kabhi ji nahi bharta??

kyu ab bheed me tanhai ka asar hota hai???
kyu bin dhoop kisi parchai ka bharam hota hai??
kyu kisi se milne ki koi tamanna nahi rahi??
kyu uska intezaar shaam-o-sehar hota hai??

kyu us-se khafa ho kar bhi us-se khafa hone ka dil nahi karta??
kyu zindagi se bewafai kar loon par us-se bewafa hone ka dil nahi karta??
kyu besabab bewaqt usi ka naam lab pe rehta hai??
kyu uske siva ab kisi ka naam lene ka dil nahi karta??

kyu uska zikr hota hai toh main khamosh ho jata hoon??
kyu uska zikr hota hai toh main jane kya kya keh jata haoon??
kyu uska zikr hota hai toh main main nahi rehta ??
kyu uska zikr hota hai toh main main ban jata hoon??

kyu ab bhi har nigaah me teri najar ki talaash hai
kyu ab bhi har aawaz me teri aahat ki talaash hai
kyu khud ki talaash me baar baar tujhe pa jata hoon
kyu ab bhi har talaash me mujhe teri hi talaash hai??

kyu ab bhi har mod par bin tere tum mil jati ho
kyu har baat me har yaad me ab bhi tum yaad aa jati ho
kyu khuda se kuch bhi maangoo toh bas teri khushiyaan yaad rahein..
kyu tum meri har khawahish me chupchap yu shamil ho jati ho...

Kabhi kabhi main bhi sochta hoon.....

Sochta hoon tumhare jaane se kya badal gaya hai
sab kuch toh wohi waisa sa hai

ye mausam ab bhi wohi mausam hai
ye hawayein ab bhi wohi hawayein hain
ye barish ab bhi wohi barish hai
ye fizayein ab bhi wohi fizayein hain
ye duniya ab bhi wohi duniya hai
ye khushiyan ab bhi wohi khushiyan hain

Par jab tum thi toh..........

tum thi toh is mausam me zara aashiqi si thi
tum thi toh in hawaon me zara tazgi si thi
tum thi toh ye barish lagti thami thami si thi
tum thi toh in fizaon me mohabbat ki zara nami si thi
tum thi toh ye duniya kitni pyari si lagti thi
tum thi toh ye khushiyan kitni hamari si lagti thi

Sochta hoon tumhare jane se kya chala gaya hai
sab kuch toh yahin ab bhi yahan hai

ye mera dil yahin ka yahin hai
har raah har manzil ab bhi wahin hain
har phool har darakht wahin k wahin hain
har lamha har waqt wahin k wahin hain
ye aashiyana wahin ka wahin hai
ye diwana wahin ka wahin hai

Par jab tum thi toh.............

tum thi toh is dil me dhadkane bhi hoti thi
tum thi toh manzilo ki khwahishein bhi hoti thi
tum thi toh ye phool khila mehaka bhi karte the
tum thi toh shaam-o-sehar is aangan se mila bhi karte the
tum thi toh ye aashiyana aisa viraana na tha
tum thi toh ye diwana is kadar diwana na tha.

Zindagi

suna tha kuch socha tha kuch,kuch aur hi lekin mila.
yu hi laut-te huye ghar aaj raste me main zindagi se mila.
mili thi kabhi bachpan me pahle,
hua karti thi sach jivan si pahle.
kuch shokh si,chalak si
batoon si, bebak si
masoom si, nadan si,
har dil ki jaise jaan si,
bholi si wo natkhat si kuch,
sachchi si wo nishkapat si kuch,
nishpaap si, chanchal si wo,
zinda si ab lagti thi nahi.

haan hua karti thi jaise wo pahle,
ab wo waisi thi nahi!!

badali si kuch lagti thi ab,
apni si kahan dikhti thi ab?
kuch khoyi khoyi, gumsum si thi.
khamosh wo chup chup si thi
jahan bhar se anjaan bhi,
jahan bhar se pareshan bhi,
sabse milkar bhi akeli si,
khud hi me uljhi paheli si,
thaki si kuch, ruki si kuch,
ek bojh se jhuki si kuch.
jahan bhar se muh mode huye,
aas jivan tak ki thi chore huye.

ye jivan ki hi nirmam dhoop thi,
k ek shor si wo chulbuli, shamshan si aaj mook thi.

pucha jo maine kahan ja rahi ho?
toh boli "sakhi ek kho gayee hai.
lagta hai thak k so gayee hai.
dhoondha jahan bhar me lekin mili nahi wo.
shayad ab yahan rahi hi nahi wo.
us bin dil me bas udasi hai.
us bin ye abhagi jahan bhar me pyaar ki pyasi hai.
chalti hoon abhi k shayad wo mil hi jaye.
kehna jaroor mujhse jo tumhe wo najar aaye.
masoom si wo badi pyari hai,
bas jara se pyar ki mari hai jahan rehti hai wo,
wahan phool mohabbat k hawaon me bahte hain
aur is jahan me log use hi toh insaniyat kahte hain."

Yaad

Jin raahon par kabhi hum sath chalte the........un par ab sirf sannate palte hain..........bache hain toh bas pairon k nishaan........Teri yaadon k saaye kabhi kabhi aansoo ban kar aa jate hain........aur lagta hai k jaise saare mukaam kho gaye ho........aajkal main bas yehi sochta hoon...<........yaad aati hai toh bas teri YAAD.....

Teri zaano pe wo sar rakh k sona yaad hai..
mere shaane k sahare wo tera rona yaad hai..
teri nigaaho me yun hi mera khona yaad hai..
tujhe yaad kar baarishon me khud ko bhigona yaad hai..
dekha tha milkar sath jo humne,
ab bhi mujhe wo khwab salona yaad hai.

yaad hai mujhe mohabbat teri wo..
yun ishq me tere aashiq hona yaad hai.

baat baat pe tera rooth jana yaad hai..
har baar fir mera tujhe manana yaad hai..
sharma k tera aanchal me muh chipana yaad hai..
yun hi tujhko baaho me uthana yaad hai..
hatheli pe tera naam likhna-mitana yaad hai..

yaad hai mujhe wo judai me aansoo bahana,
k mujhe aaj bhi wo aashiqi ka zamana yaad hai.

jhijhakta sa mera wo izhaar yaad hai..
fir tera wo sharmaya iqraar yaad hai..
tere na aane pe pe kiya wo intezaar yaad hai..
na milne pe hona beqaraar yaad hai..
pyar ki meethi meethi taqraar yaad hai..

yaad hai mujhe teri mohabbat me jiya har pal,
k aaj bhi mujhe beshumar tera wo pyar yaad hai.

TUM: know yourself

Tum vaat ho, tum aag ho,
tum aas ho, vishwaas ho
dhara ho tum, aakash ho
jeevan ki amar tum pyaas ho.
Chahe abhi hatash ho,
par is bedam jahan ki saans ho.

 Kisi k ghar ki shaan ho
kisi k sir ka maan ho
kisi k tum bhagwan ho
zindadili ki pehchan ho
khushiyo k tum hi pran ho.
na haare ho abhi, na haaroge kabhi..
k tum swyam vijay k vardaan ho.

Tum zindagi ka dansh ho
halahal ka meetha ansh ho
bhulo nahi manav ho tum, ek aparajit vansh ho.

Ab bol do, mukh khol do..
chup mrit se ab na raho..
ravani hai fitrat me tumhari..
ye shithilta fir kyu saho?
bahana hi likha hai lalaat par, toh aakhon se nahi tan par baho.

kyun bahoon main tal ki or annal hoon main jaldhara nahi
Sinh hoon main kya hua jo ban sinh hunkara nahi..
vivash hoon bas karm se.. haalaat ka mara nahi..
keh do abhi zinda hoon main..keh do abhi haara nahi..

...keh do....abhi haara nahi...

Wo aisi hi hai

Hai roshan aaftab tere hi noor se...
mahtaab me hai tera hi chehra.
khushbu hai phoolon me teri saanso se...
hai kali raato me teri zulfo ka andhera.

Tujhe chhu kar mahakne ko hi toh hawayein chalti hain...
teri adaayein hi toh mausamo k rukh badalti hain.
har kahin har suu tu basi hai sanam...
ye kaaynaat toh hai bas ek aks tera.

Ye hasin manzar teri nigahon k aseer lagte hain...
ye nazare tere husn k aage fakeer lagte hain.
tere jaisa kuch aur khuda ne banaya hi nahi...
tujhse khoobsurat hai toh bas ye ishq mera.

Teri nigahon ki mai se hi toh jaam-e-jam bhare jate hain...
diid ko tere hi ushshaq sar-e-mahshar tak bhi chale aate hain.
tera husnezan cheen le jeene ki aarzoo...
wayas ko bhi kaafir kar de ye jamal-e-dilfaroz tera.

That glance...

Tha woh koi khwab ya fir haqiqat thi..
yu jo teri nazarein mujhse mukhatib thi..
Shayad koi sawal tha unme..
shayad wo kuch pooch rahi thi mujhse..
Ek unjaana sa izhaar tha unme..
shayad pyar ka iqraar tha unme..

Ek nazar me hi main jo bahakne laga tha..
k unme mohabbat ka gahara nasha tha..

Kyu zubaan teri chup thi, kyu khamosh the lab..
ya jane hai tu ye, ya jane mera rab..

Dil k chaman me ek phool khila gayee wo..
mujhko mujh hi se chura le gayee wo..

Kya wo samjha rahi thi kya main samjha nahi hoon..
mujhko bas ye khabar hai k ab main khud ka nahi hoon..